Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Hospital Time!

As soon and my doctors at Primary Childrens Hospital got a better grasp on what was going on, they decided to start me on a "high risk protocol".. this meant 54 weeks of chemo, and Radiation starting at 20 weeks. The drugs they planned to use were really strong and have major long term side effects. This was scary to me, but like the side effects I obtained from the first time around, you just learned to work around them and live your life the best you can. I went in on Friday, August 21st for surgery to get a port put in my blood stream, which is where the chemo and all my drugs are put into my system. During surgery they performed a bone marrow biopsy, and if I have one thing to say about it, it is- i'm so sorry if you ever have to have one! haha.. Right after surgery I was admitted for a possible 5 day stay in the hospital where I recieved my first 5 rounds of chemo. I didn't know what to expect and I don't remember a whole lot, but I do know that the minute the chemo was in my body, my entire stomach jumped to my throat and it was all I could do to not throw up and that feeling hasn't quite gone away yet 2 weeks later. The hospital stay wasn't as bad as I worked it up to be in my mind, but thats because I had amazing family and friend visitors and my mama didn't ever leave my side! I had awesome nurses that taught me all about how to handle cancer and take care of my port and my nutrition plan. The most amazing part about it all is that I have some of the same doctors and nurses that treated me 20 years ago! I love Primary Childrens, if I have to be anywhere, I would choose to be there. Since I came home from the hospital I've had 2 more chemo treatments. There really is no way to descibe how chemo drugs make you feel, so I'm not going to try, but those of you that have had it.. you know... IT SUCKS! haha but the constant support, love, prayers, and visits that I get help to make it through. My mom always says to me, you just have to take life one day at a time, and thats just what I'm doing:)
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  1. Tiffy--I am so glad that you have started your blog. I have been checking every night to see if you have felt up to it yet. Maybe I am the one who is most excited about this because I am far away from you. However, I think you will have many people look at this and be touched. You are an amazing Girly! Love you!! I love all the pics from the hospital. I know you don't remember all of these moments, but it is good to have them.

  2. Hey, Tiff
    This blog is pretty good! I love you picture collage!!! Congrats on being an aunt again! You are in my thoughts and prayers! I keep your name on the prayer roll in the temple when I go to work each Friday! Heidi and Mike said they miss seeing you at Dixie! It's the best school!!! Check out my blog for my class:
    God bless you,
    Aunt Ann

  3. Hey Tiff.

    I love you girl. I am so happy you started a blog so we can see how your progressing. You are in my thoughts and prayers Love you girl


  4. Tiff,

    Hey! so surprisingly I have a blog...i never use it but i will be checking yours all the time :) Anyway i just wanted to tell you how much i love and look up to you. You are AMAZING! keep being strong!


  5. My Amazing Niece Tiff!
    I don't think you could ever know how much I love and admire you! You are the "miracle baby" in our family! I'll never forget your cute little bald head! Now, your doing it again...and it is hard to understand why? You are teaching all of us very important life lessons as you face this ruthless disease head on! My heart aches for you every sec. of every day! I wish I could take this from you! I really do! Arrrrgh! I get so mad! I love you so much and you really are my hero! You fight hard Tiff! You beat it once before you can do it again!
    Love you as my own!